Sum It Up Sunday - Sugar, Sugar!
I have a confession to make to you, I’m a shitty vegan. It’s the pastries that tempt me off the vegan wagon. They make me step back from my “I need to eat healthier” stance and fall full force into some sugary, buttery, cream-filled nonsense. Like this very Bavarian Cream Cake I tasted at a cake pop up benefiting Planned Parenthood in San Francisco. I vowed that day, that it would be the last indulgence I would have.
And a reminder, I am vegan because it’s the best way I’ve found to control my cholesterol.
Around 9 years ago I went sugar-free. I was a few years sober and my body was craving the sugar it missed from my binge drinking days. So sugar binge it was. My stomach grew, my health was crap and I felt it. I stopped eating sugar and about a year later, went vegan.
I lost tons of weight, felt more energy than I ever did before and was like,” Yeah, this is what I need to do with my life!” I was a size 4 for fuck’s sake! It was amazing.
I know weight isn’t the only indicator of health. Even when a size 4 my BMI was too high. Yet I was so damm healthy and strong. I don’t feel like that right now and I want to feel better. I may never be that small again, and I’m ok with that as long as I feel healthy, strong and happy.
My body doesn’t process sugar well. Maybe due to all the excessive drinking in my past? I’m not sure why, I just know it doesn’t. Fruit I’m ok with, as the fiber and nutrients in a whole piece offset any sugars that they may contain. I need to up my intake of them to keep myself from craving the things I don’t need.
Sugar is my downfall. I love the folks who make or tempt me with sweet treats. There is a part of me that feels “I deserve this!” Ultimately it’s self-sabotaging. I may want that pastry, but I don’t need it, shouldn’t have it, and if I keep it up I’ll be a diabetic.
So right here, right now, I will state this.
NO MORE SUGAR!
It has to happen. So when you offer me up some sweet treat and I politely say no thank you, please know I appreciate your gesture. You’re trying to show me you love me by sharing something wonderful. I hope you’ll see that that love can also be shown more through your support.
So here we go, folks: sugar free Chris is back!